Yeah. I realize. The last entry was HELLA mean.

But in all reality, it wasn't really toward any of the people who read my stuff here on DA. It was just me ranting and raving. As a matter of fact, when I wrote it, it was meant to be put on Facebook (because then the people it DID apply to would have seen it), but I decided against posting it on Facebook due to the fact that I've ALREADY started world war 3 between myself and those-people-who-are-technically-blood-related-to-me.

So sorry if anyone took it personally.

I've just been so overly-stressed. To the point I think it's unfair that God put me through this.

I'm a freshman in college. I shouldn't NEED to worry about half the shit I do.

But somehow, someway, I find myself worrying about rent, if I have enough money to eat, if Im even able to PAY for school and finish it, and oh, what the fuck happened to all of that stolen money.

I understand people struggle. But all my life I've been surrounded by people who have FAMILY to SUPPORT them to go through college, or who just PAY for their college... And mommy and daddy send them a check in the mail every week so they can buy whatever they please (which ends up being alcohol.)
And litterally, while all these people have the things that I NEVER did, they still think they have every right to turn around and COMPLAIN to me about how their life sucks.
"Aww... Mom didn't give me enough this week. Now I cant buy my new X-box game!" <Actual complaint.
"Man... My DAD is coming to visit me this weekend.. God I'd wish he and mom would just BUTT OUT of my ENTIRE LIFE" < Actual complaint.

You see... I hear these things, and the only thing I can think is... ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?! Mommy and Daddy SEND You money, I dont even have enough cash to feed myself half the time because i rely solely on myself and my fiance! ANd it's BAD that your loving parents want to come visit you, buy you all your meals for that weekend, and more than likely take you shopping for new clothes because your their loving child!? OH. DAMN. Woah is you. You have to get free shit from people who love you.
What have I gotten?
A sayanora, and then shortly after emails from my sisters of people bitching about me behind my back because I "stopped calling"... When in reality if they actually CALLED ME rather than just found reasons to bitch about me and what a fuck up I am for actually ATTEMPTING COLLEGE, they'd realize that my phone is shut off.

So... The last entry was completely needed.

I'm just stressed.
And tired of the bull shit that is happpening to me.

Yeah. People struggle.
But I have YET to see a person struggle like ME.

Not only can I NOT pay for college to the point that I have to drop out, but people are STILL stealing my MONEY (as was said in a past post). ...

Not only THAT, im dealing with an identity fraud case now too.

Oh, and people are trying their damndest to stop Suton's and my wedding.


You see where Im stressed here?

I just dont get how all these bad things had to happen all at once for me...

Anyway, there's your explanation. It wasn't toward any of you... It just needed posting.


Until next rant,
Chasity